I can write when: there’s a deadline, there’s some form of payment, there’s a foreseeable end point, there are people who can guide me and believe in me (or breathing down my neck works as well).
I can’t write when: there’s a blank piece of paper, I remember all the rejections and criticisms, I feel overwhelmed with all the other things I need to do.
Still pretty needy and dependent and it’s been years of pretty much sticking to this same spot. I wish I could say, “Things are going to change NOW!” but I also know how empty declarations can be made too easily.
As such, let’s just say there are going to be little adjustments, baby steps towards the unknown.